"I don't want to graduate!" were the very words I spoke to my homeroom teacher at the beginning of my senior year. Yeah. That changed. I went through times of feeling completely suffocated. I wanted out. I wanted to graduate. College looked better and better every morning after I stayed up until 1 am doing homework and woke up at 6 am only to repeat it later...(I remember my parents telling me how late they'd stayed up during their college days. They'd be bugged eyed in their books and sipping cup after cup of coffee. So far this year, I haven't been to bed past 12. *knock on wood*)
College is pretty sweet. High school had its good days, but it was definitely time for me to move on. We all get there; ready to move on to the next big thing in our lives. We start to view our lives as a cage...It gets mundane. Repetitive. We want a new job. We're ready for marriage. We long for kids. We want to travel. Maybe we'll finally start that business we've dreamed of. Why are we always dreaming of something better? We get discontent with where we are. The life we know now isn't good enough, and if we could just have that one thing we'll be happy. I sigh at myself and shake my head because I've been a discontent dreamer. Ungratefulness is poison. The most miserable times in my life were time I was discontent. I've been learning the value of having a grateful heart. Wow! It's pretty amazing. I don't wake up dreading the day ahead. I'm just glad to have life! I can't even tell you the joy I feel. It's ridiculous. I'm not encouraging to live as a happy-go-lucky person. No. I'm talking about genuine gratitude, not an annoying fake front that we'll eventually give up trying to keep up.
Am I grateful for high school? Absolutely. It helped to bring me where I am. I thought it as torture sometimes, but I wouldn't take that part of my life away from me. In fact, I wouldn't change a thing.
"Gratitude changes the way we start the day, spend the day, and look back on the day." ~ Nancy Leigh DeMoss
Some more high school memories...
Graduation night with my sisters!
My prom date
The kids I grew up with...
Well first of all, welcome to the world of blogging. I've tried it a few times myself, only to eventually lose interest haha but I always come back to blogging as a way of just saying what I need to say, so I hope you'll enjoy it as much as I have in the past.
ReplyDeleteAs to your first post, I don't think there's a way I can agree any more. I love college so much. Obviously there are still some of the same problems (I mean homework and tests... really?), but I have to say that just being here for the experience is worth it. It's good to know you're enjoying it too :)